Getting Back to Good

I still contend that it takes the precision of a rocket scientist to get pregnant (unless, of course, you are a teenager and scared to death of having a baby). Despite the work involved (temping, charting,OPKs, fertility monitoring, and let's be honest, doing the deed as a command performance) I kind of missed it.

The last time I new everything anyone would ever want to know about their own cycle was March-the month I got pregnant. After the miscarriage and my doctor's edict "do not get pregnant", I found it liberating not to set my alarm to 5:30am seven days a week to temp, not to pee on a stick 20 mornings a month, and not to date rape my husband after an uneventful and not particularly romantic dinner.

But now that it has been 5 months, I kind of miss it. I want to know if all my efforts have paid off. And let's call a spade a spade, I didn't take my fertility efforts in moderation. To recap I am seeing a reflexologist about 2x a month (though we will up once I can start TTC again), I am taking B-6 vitamins in an effort to lengthen my luteal phase, I started Atkins to help regulate hormones and hopefully help my long cycle, I started exercising 5 times a week without fail, I lost a bunch of weight and I had the mutant fibroid extricated from my body. Now, with the exception of fibroid, these other efforts have been consistent for 4 months and no longer a shock to my system.

I am seriously looking forward to setting the alarm early for my temp (though I got a 20 minute grace period from my DH, he agreed to never set his alarm before 5:50am), using my overpriced but well-worth it monitor, tracking my luteal phase, and of course inviting daydreams of my BFP back into my every day life.

I guess you don't appreciate what you have till it's gone.

Well I'll Be...

I guess my doctor didn't like being on a break either. While yesterday I made peace with going to the fertility doctor, she was reconsidering. Turned out she called the Fertility doctor (the main guy not the one my appointment is with) and asked his take on my progesterone request.

He told her that he agrees that LPD (luteal phase defect) should be treated with clomid, but if I am insistent on progesterone supplements than "it isn't worth arguing about". He said it wouldn't do any harm and if it brought me peace than go for it.

So that means we aren't on a break! She said if I get a BFP I should come to her not the fertility doctor and I should cancel my fertility appointment.

But here is the catch, if I cancel that appointment my mother in law will personally drag me out of the house by my hair (making note not to hurt my healing uterus) and then my mom will roll over me in a semi truck. They are both thrilled that I am "finallllly" (to be read exasperatingly) seeing an expert.

What I realized is I don't know if I have LPD because I haven't tracked my cycle since my miscarriage in April and now I don't have the mutant fibroid. So all I want is to try the first cycle on my own, if I do get a BFP, bring on the progesterone need be, and if I don't I will take the clomid.

I am going to keep my appointment and at least get a game plan in case I do have LPD. And this way my mom won't live with the guilt of maiming her daughter.